Saturday, December 12, 2009

Phoenix

Phoenix let me fly

Soar by your side

Give way and just glide

Dont give in to pride

This is how my soul has died

And so I land

Look across the great band

And realize that I shall not demand

But rather old out my hand

And give entrance to something grand

I take flight once more

To impress the girl I adore

To show that you're

The one that I live for


I wrote this poem after listening to Phoenix. I thought of Amanda, and was inspired by the thought. She's just one of those girls in my life. I've fallen for her, and yet she's just one of those cases where if you wanted to or even tried to get involved with her, it would take much stability on your part to hold it together.

I see her everyday, obviously, since shes always hanging around Hokona. Shes always flirting with other guys, and saying that she would love to "do" things with them. I cant say Im opposed to it, but it definitely kills me a bit every time. I just dont understand. I think its because Im not moving in, and not making things clearer. I mean fuck, shes right here, no one else is in the room except for her and me, and all I can do is write in this blog. I just feel like I respect her so much that I would hate to make her into a "play-toy" as some people may call it.

But am I using this as my excuse? Because Im too nervous to ask her or do anything about it? Am I really that scared of judgment? I shouldn't be... And yet I am....

What to do...

Have A Good One



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