The Dynamics

So Im just learning the dynamics of a relationship, one must never be around their girl all the time.. I've been learning this the hard way. Its hard for me to stop thinking about her, I can, and when I do I do, its just I dont really like too. I feel this disconnect, and so I figured out that I'm very clingy...

This isn't a good thing, its not good for me to be there all the time, but isn't it? I mean maybe I'm just a different asset in their lives. They don't always need me to have a good time, but rather they do need you when their purse gets stolen. Its a ridiculous cycle, you'd think a girlfriend could be a lover and a friend..

Maybe its just me, maybe its just the situation I'm in. I want to be around her because I like to be, but at the same time, I feel like I shouldn't. I feel so conflicted, my head is spinning in circles once again. I can't even think for the slightest moment, its almost like I dont know what I want anymore.

I'm just gonna look on the brighter side, and see this as a time for me to really turn around, to really improve myself. Shes already helped so much with that, but its not just my own improvement, I need to make sure I dont change the being that is Phil. I can be more organized and still be myself instead of stressed out, I can be doin' my homework and still be myself. Lisa and I, I know we have something between us, we do, we just haven't really taken the time to stop and think about what we have.

Have a Good One