Contingency

Oh Contingency, Oh So Unique

Oh Contingency

Can you sense me

With all your potency

Or wait, lets see

Must I pay a fee?

At the cost of my soul

Give into your goal

Inspiring till Im full

Listening to your breath

That sweet lull

I lay next to thee

As I gently pull

The beauty that lies sleepily

Beneath the sheets so sheepishly

I wonder what you mean to me

And how this all could be

But never shall, and never will

So here we lie still

After a night of some pills and some thrills

This poem is meant to show how I felt that night

How I felt no fright, and felt all this might

How I could let go of the world

And just for a moment let love be unfurled

Now I sit outside

Waiting for you to some sit by my side

Jump in life's waters, hold my hand, and drift with the tide

Let go of strife's falters, walk with me through the sand, and come for a ride

But you wont come out

And no matter how much I sit and pout

I will not doubt

I know this will never change what is to come about

But please sit with me

Take my hand and watch my face light with glee

As I kiss you gently

And caress you soundly

I'll let this poem end here

I believe I've made myself quite clear

That its not you I fear

Or love I seek

Just for you to appear

And give me one night of beauty

Oh so unique


And so here I am once again, sitting by myself outside listening to music (Andy Mckee) and waiting for Aggie. I doubt shes gonna come out tonight, in fact I doubt that so much Im writing poems about it. I wish she would, but no matter how much I wish for it I know its not gonna happen and the one thing I hate giving myself is false hope.

Also Ive been hyping her up so much in my head for the past couple of days since she hasnt hit me up and or let me relieve everything that has been building up inside for her. I need to express it all and let it loose, I want her for one more night, but I wont... Because she cant hold true to her word... I mean maybe I really am taking this too far... Overthinking... My one and only flaw and yet my gift...

I keep looking up at her window, I just looked, shes not in the window. Once again, I wish she was. No ones around, and this would be the perfect time to really get some good alone time with her, especially in my room where I could play some music for us.

Well anyways, writing all this stuff in you probably isnt helping my problem overall... Not thinking about her...

Have a Good One