Writing for the Sake of Writing

Here I am once more, ready to reveal my world unto you, my reader. I doubt anyone reads this anyways, at least unless I ask them too, or if its Alan. (Thanks buddy for reading all mine haha).

Anyways, sitting in my chair bored as I will ever be. I'm sure theres something I could be doing, but I can't really feel my left leg, it kinda fell asleep on me. So anyways, I have come to understand, at least what I think can be seen as, a little piece of the world around me. How love, hooking up, and all that business comes together, in this modern day and age. I guess people just dont give a fuck anymore. I mean alright, I guess Cleo doesnt share those same feelings I have, but whatever. I am understanding a lot right. The explaination would be immense, but I think I'll attempt to explain it.

It kinda goes like this. When someone needs something physical in their life, or someone to at least share themselves with another person, you shouldn't be closed up about it. Nor should you explode into some irrational explaination on how you feel inside. It sounded ridiculous when I first thought about it, but really in the end it all makes sense. Love is real, but love is defined by many in different ways. I'm an easy lover, I accept love quickly and I form feelings for people that are so profound, that even some people can't fathom for how much I love them. But I've decided to adapt, to get with the times, get with the people. Be a man of the modern day.

I can't keep living in fantasy worlds of love, or stories, and poems that I wish could be true. No. It doesn't work like that. If you want me to explain my older perspective of love, it would most likely go as written:

"When a certain gender becomes physically attracted to a different/same gender, and decides to live a small or large portion of their lives with them. When they decide to give up almost anything for that one person, and open up both physically and mentally. To show them the true you. The you that you wouldn't let anyone else see, except that one person you know and trust."

According to some people though, this is all bullshit, or at least a good reason to give up on someone.

I've decided to reform myself, become a different man than I once was, to approach love with more openness, and to withdraw emotions from it. I know it goes against my basic belief, that we are all humans, and given the right, and privilege to love. But I guess it just depends on how you approach it, and how you carry it out.

My new approach to this so called "love game", is to finally accept that I need to be open, stop saving myself, stop trying, stop talking, just let it all come to me. To be relaxed. I have seen the world through this new lens, and it looks fantastic so far. We'll see how this all works out in the future. 

Have A Good One.