Loneliness

Its hard to describe what loneliness is without putting a bias upon it, its beneficial and yet detrimental in its own ways. Here I sit, by myself, studying, retaining information that will, in turn, better my future being, but in all honesty I hate working alone. I understand that as a teacher I will not be working alone for the most part, and this has plenty to do with why I chose that career as my goal in life.

I've been feeling this recent separation from the world, as if nothing in my reality actually exists unless I deem it to exist, the decision falls upon my personal interests. Seems pretty closed minded to me. I hate it, but at the same time, I'm benefiting myself so much more by just focusing on my priorities.

Confusion heading amusing thoughts

Knowing knowledge can't be bought

Look how far I got after being taught

By teachers whose salaries are sought

This is not what education is about

Paying a fee for intelligence?

Might as well set me free feeling impetuous

In this world of misunderstood tension

Requirements to pay pension for our social ascension

I'm not sad or depressed when I say fuck this world. Its not from dread or pity, neither from sympathy or care. This conclusion is brought about by the unpredictability and absolute absurdness of the universe. We have but little control over what is said to become in our reality, I know that we have what it takes to willingly pursue dreams, passions, and desires, but this pursuit takes away from the truths of the world, which are unknown. We end up discovering our own truths, which in itself, is a noble and reputable act, but where are the meanings? Behind intention?

We exist, this is true, that cannot be denied that our existence is the pure divine essence of being, but the divinity has transformed into a misconceived notion of individuality. People define themselves as individuals as a part of a bigger community, but the controversy with variety from opinion tears people a part, soon, we can't look at one another the same way again because it is implanted in our subconscious to always view that person as their own individual.

In a sense, we lose that divinity by becoming what our peers view us as, not only have we lost our own individuality, but people don't want to connect with that divinity we all share of existence. We will never be able to look past our own existence if we don't open our minds, understand our reality, and shape our perceptions to share at least one similar value.

Our end is coming, ambition is worthless, idealism is a joke, government isn't trusted, authority is feared by the group it is protecting, the world is turning on its head. As humans we must heed this call of deterioration, as it is but our will to survive that will save us in the end.

Have a Good One