The Rough Terrain

Its about 1:36 AM, and I'm writing in my blog. I guess I'm just that kinda guy who just says whats on his mind, even when theres no one there to listen to him, but anyways, I saw Eagle Eye, and it was pretty good. Shai definitly turned on his "Transfomers" acting, and did a pretty darn good job. Caught my attention at times, but this was not the crux of the night. Tonight, was a night of just good times with old friends. I met up with Daniel and Andrew. It was Daniels birthday, he turned 17 today, and we all went out to see Eagle Eye, and just hang out.

We arrived at the theatres at about 8:15 PM, where I got out of the car, cigarette in hand, and just as I was lighting it up, something struck me. Something thats never really struck me before, especially at such an odd time like that. I felt alone. I felt that nothingness inside you, when youre that lonely guy smoking the cigarette, thinking wheres my date, wheres my happiness? I shoved that thought to the side, as I put my arm around my friends shoulder and wished him a happy birthday.

And now, all night, I've just been sitting in my chair. Thinking, about girls nonetheless, and just how I've let some great ones just slip by me. They have to be the greatest mystery in the world. They always ask for the nice guy, and yet it just never works out for us. I guess its the truth when people say "nice guys finish last." But am I ok with finishing last? Do I really need to finish first? And it kinda just dawned on me just at this moment, that everythings alright, even if I do come in last place....at least I past the finish line...at least I made it somewhere. 

But on a lighter note, I finally get to see my ol' buddy Alan tomorrow. I believe we're going to Mels Diner, which is like the local place for all the "Sherman Oakians/Van Nuysians."As you can probably already tell I made up both of those words on the spot. I can't wait to get reacquianted with him. It's really been awhile, and we both kinda moved our seperate ways. Hanging out less and less, but I'm really lookin forward to bringing back the good ol' days, where we just hung out and were friends. Those were nice. 

I guess life isn't all its cracked up to be. As we grasp the rope with no up or down. We just climb to our own freedom and enlightenment, afraid to look down, only looking up and exerting all kinds of force to reach the top, which is completely enshrouded in mist of our own egos. But life, is good, life is what keeps us living, me living. Its what gets me up every morning, fills me with that bravery and confidence to take challenges head on, and to experience a life unrestricted and yet fullfilled with every aspect I've always aspired too. So on these few writings I leave you all, to say good night, and sweet dreams to ya'll. Have A Good One.