On the Up

Life has been going great. This is new for me.. Alan told me over semester break, just work hard dude, and shit will work out for you. Little did I know he was right the whole time, he would tell me this all the time in the past and I never listened. Now I work hard as a lifeguard, and my supervisors love having me around. They all tell the "higher ups," how great a guard I am, that I ask questions no other guard would ask out of an interest for my job.

Not only has my job being going so well, but my schoolwork as thoroughly improved. I'm working harder in school, studying for all my tests, plus I've been including myself in class discussions. Its wonderful, all my teachers love me, the ones that care to love their students, as well as, I've been loving all my teachers. I've pretty much been acing all my tests and quizzes, and there's not much more to say about that.

I also met a wonderful girl, her name is Sydney, and for real this time, she cares about me. Its so nice having a girl that is legitimately interested in the way you do things, she always ask's me the weirdest questions that turn out to be some of the most intriguing questions a girl has ever asked me. Its not the lame boring cliche questions, for example, "do you like me?" Fuck that, both of us are confident enough to know that we like each other. She asks me questions like, "Do you worry about me?" A great question that required some thought about myself and how I view her. I told her that I care about her, but I feel like I don't need to worry about someone who I trust and is confident enough in what they do. I figure if anything did happen whilst we weren't together, and when I say "did" I mean something harmful to her or myself. It would be immediately communicated to the other partner, its just so nice knowing that the only secrets that haven't been shared are the ones that aren't worth sharing just yet. We've been taking this slow and so far so good, We're going on a trip soon to Phoenix on April 30th, I'm very excited to have time with just her and no one else to interfere because recently people have been telling me things about her past that I should hear from her, rather than others. As Blink-182 once said, "Dont let your future be destroyed by your past." Words I take to heart.

Man, everything has been really chill lately, all I needed was that Spring Break. I got to free my mind from the shackles of organized academics. I was able to enjoy my time with others visiting from NM. I even combined that time with old friends from LA and had an amazing experience at my first rave. I didn't have to take ecstasy in order to feel it. The music filled my soul, telling my body what to do, moving me so emotionally, that every pound of the bass emulated euphoria from my body through sweaty pores. My eyes rolling to the back my head and whenever I closed them I could feel the build ups and drops with my fingertips that touched the overruling frequencies of dubstep. My spirit allowed me to dance for 12 hours straight, nothing gets better than expressionism through dance.

So here I am, in class, I have work from 530-8 since my friend is sick and needed a sub. I'll write more later, I need to get on my poetry again, write something truly inspiring during this time of confidence and happiness.

Have a Good One :)