As the Night Continues

I want to add these two poems that mean a lot to me at the  moment within this blog. This first one has to do with anticipation hence its name "Anticipation". I wrote it when I was going through a very anxious situation. I was awaiting the arrival of some person who has yet to be named within here. So I wrote this poem:

Anticipation

Anticipation

What a proclamation

Lifes exclamation

Dedication?

What dedication?

Its all defaction

You see its all a formation

There is no retaliation

Only a temptation

It is but the fascination

Of the firmentation

The detonation

The inspiration

A creation

Of more expectation

Oh anticipation

How you are my inflamation

So the night went on, and I had a great time with this girl. And well, this poem has to do about a certain part of our night. One of those, as I said earlier, "interesting sequences".

Is It Okay?

Is it okay

If I say

No wait

It must be too late

It has to be fate

Or maybe its the day

To let everything go away

To throw everything to the fray

Ah, why do I do this?

How come I always miss

Stuck, with no feeling of bliss

But was it me that caused it to be this way

Or was it just my fear causing this dismay

Perhaps things will change

Perhaps I will rearrange

And so here I lay

Awaiting that month of May

Wondering, will it be okay

Well those are all my recent poems, I have a lot more in my journal. I just felt as if these two were most relevant to what we were talking about before. Anyways, I'm off again. Im superbly hungry. 

Have a Good One

Leavin' Early

Got out of school at 10:15. Wow, not as fun as I had thought it to be. After brewing a nice hot cup of tea. I stood outside, and looked at a tree. But to my glee. I figured that there really was no fee.  Just free. And so you see. This other part of me. Stuck in a world of bees. Just trying to be free.

Seriously how I feel right now. Man, this is so boring. I literally have NOTHING to do, except for write in you. I practiced my drums, took a couple of walks, listened to some music (danced and sang). I guess this is the boring side of life, the peaceful side to it all. No quarells or worries, just chilling. Its these points in my life where I realize how much interest really matters to everyone. Its an interesting concept lol. Ok, well Im off to just, I guess take a nap. Maybe schmooze on the couch a little bit. Who knows.... Hoping she calls. 

Have a Good One

On the Brink of an Ice Rink

Its funny, cause everytime I say I won't do something, I end up doing it anyway. I dont know why. Maybe its because I feel comfortable doing what I have been doing. I guess its harder to leave my comfort zone than I had thought. Fuck man. Well I guess it doesnt matter. Perhaps Im dwelling too much on the topic. Anyways I had an amazing Spring Break, with gambling, rockclimbing, surfing, and kayaking. It was fantastic. 

Gambling was super fun. I won 150 dollars, while my friends....well, I'll let them explain it if they want too. We went to the Morongo Casino, and stayed at Andrews condo. It was great.

I also finished refurnishing my room. Finally it looks clean. I'm so happy. I feel refreshed, in a physical sense.

As for all the adventurous activities I listed off. Our school did this Tiyulim week. It was so much fun, with Mr Lieb. Great, my mom just burst into the room telling me we have dinner"NOW!" Man I fucking hate that. Why would anyone stop my writing? Its a trance for me, my way to escape what is real to me. Its like my third perspective on life. Ok well, I guess I have to go to dinner. Sucks I didnt get to explain the more interesting stuff. I hope I can really get into my writing once I come back. 

And we're back. Well Taylor is now explaining everything to me. I'll write later.

Well Im back once again. Ok so now to the more interesting stuff. I met this amazing girl last night. I really wont say much about it, except for that it was night full of mixed emotions, and interesting sequences. I think, I..think, I really like this girl, god Alans gonna kill me for sounding all romantic and shit. Lol I love you man. But anyways, I hope to see her again soon. She just called me, trying to explain how she was acting last night. I let her know that it was nothing to worry about, and right when the conversation ended. I hung up the phone with this different sense. This sense that, she likes me too. This is going to be an experience that will live with me forever. I hope that this experience grows into a more life changing one. I'll write in you later man.

Have a Good One.